I just read the most amazing study by Paris Reidhead about Micah. The self appointed priest of the Lord who mixed the priesthood with the idolatry in the land in which he lived. At this time men lived as it seemed best to them. In reading this amazing sermon I could see my own humanistic approach to God and how I have settled for so long to live for 10 Shekels and a Shirt instead of serving out of a heart of complete worship, the one alone who is worthy of such service, Jesus Christ.
What I walked away realizing was how often I settled for a life of what God could do for me, keep me from hell, give me heaven, save me, provide for me, carry me…etc…really self centered, huh?!!! I realized I want to know God for who God is. I want to be drawn into his glorious presence, I want to know the total reality of my sin and the opposite reality of his glory! I want to serve the living God because of who he is! I desire within me to lay my life down and realize I’m too selfish to do this on my own! I need his conviction, his drawing and for him to help me to want to do this. I must choose but he will walk with me to the cross. I have to climb on it and die to self…die to rights….die to what I’ve believed I’m entitled to…I need Jesus…..I’m no longer desiring to tell people about Jesus to keep them out of hell…but rather…telling them of a savior who is worthy of their lives because he purchased them with his own life….they are unworthy…I am unworthy…but we are his reward! Anyway, these are my initial responses to this. I’m praying for more revelation and understanding. I know I’m in pursuit of a savior and will not stop short of knowing who God really is and having him totally control and live through me.
Thank you for your time…blessings.
Twila Crawford
